If You Love It, Do It

It's been a little over a year since I started this new journey and a lot has happened in so little time. Around this time last year, I had already received my degree, I was days away from starting a new job, but i had no idea where I was going or what i was going to do. i was convinced that what i wanted to do was impossible and a waste of time. with a lot of soul searching and help from some incredible people, i was able to realize something that changed my life:  

it was all bull.

for those of you on the fence about pursuing something you love,

something people will criticize you for pushing towards, 

this is for you.

I've been a creative since I was a baby. A part of me has always been drawn to art and I can't tell you how good it feels to be pursing this. From what I remember, my childhood was filled with a lot of creativity. I started playing the piano at 3 years old. I had a toy piano that played music and I'd sit in front of it listening to every song over and over until I could play them by ear. That pretty much started everything.

Throughout my childhood, my brothers and I would get those Highlights magazines in the mail and the first thing I'd do was turn to the arts and crafts page. I'd attempt almost every single art project in every magazine we got. If I wasn't drawing or folding paper, I was at the piano. If I wasn't at the piano, I was on the computer messing with Paint or this Spiderman movie making game (which I need to find because that game was the bomb).  

Years later, I always had a camera in my hand. Nothing crazy, just a regular little digital camera. I wanted to capture every moment with my friends, so I was always taking pictures or recording videos. I taught myself how to use Windows Movie Maker and ended up spending a lot of my time editing. Later on, I started singing and writing more music. I started a band and performed at small shows, and I would try to collab with other musicians. But after a while, I lost the drive.  

I lost touch with my creative instincts. I would sketch here and there, sing or play the piano every so often, take a few pictures or videos when I was with my friends, but it wasn't really the same. Other things were being put in front of all that. I had to focus on school and work, think about my career, where I was going to college, what major I would pursue, etc. Looking back now, I realize that was when I started feeling kind of "lost" in a way.

It wasn't really the stress of school or work or even my future. Not that it wasn't stressful, it absolutely was, but all of that seemed to be decided for me. I pretty much lost what made me naturally happy, what made me "Joy" (hehe, see what I did there). But seriously though, having creative freedom is what gives me life. It's a feeling I can't get from anything or anyone else.  






Fashion changed everything for me. It wasn't something I just decided to do, it was something that had developed over a long time. My style grew as I grew. I was super shy, super self-conscious, and had low self-esteem. I was lame and so was my style lol. The more I opened up and understood my personality, the more my style flourished. And because of that, I flourished.

This is why fashion is so important to me. It wasn't something that came naturally to me the way music did. It was something I had to figure out, the same way I had to figure myself out. This is why I'm always going on about how my style is a reflection of my personality. I am what I wear. When I get dressed, and I look at myself in the mirror, I don't just see an outfit. I see growth, and it's an incredible feeling.

If you have something that makes you feel alive, if you feel like you were born to do something, do it. You'll only get as far as you allow yourself. Not everyone will understand, not everyone will approve, but who cares? If you're being responsible, and you're doing what needs to be done, you owe it to yourself to pursue your own passion. If you love it, do it.