Don't Doubt Yourself


There's a good chance you're going to have moments in your life where you're filled with doubt. You doubt the decisions you made, the path you chose to take, where you are and where you're heading. But the worst of it all is the moment you doubt yourself. 

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I can't even tell you how many times I've heard "You're strong" just over the past few weeks. To be completely honest, I've been feeling so weak and so tired. I've been doubting so many things that I shouldn't doubt at all. Nothing will ever stop me from achieving my goals. Nothing will ever stop me from becoming the person I want to be, and nothing will ever get in the way of my journey to happiness. But no matter how hard you try, no matter how much you do right, there will always be situations in your life that set you back, even for a moment. And those are the moments that count the most. Those are the moments that determine everything. Will you give up? Or will you get up? 

Life is not easy. That may seem like such a dumb statement because it's something everyone "knows", but I feel like it's one of those phrases we hear so often that it's lost its meaning. It's phrases like "I love you" or "I miss you" or even a simple "Thank you" or "How are you". They're all so common. They've turned into formalities. Their implications aren't as strong as they're meant to be, and it's unfortunate. Phrases like these pass our ears so easily and we take them for granted the same way we take for granted the ones who say them. We forget the depth of these words. We forget how serious they really are. So when I say "Life is not easy", hear the depth of those four words.

Nothing you do will mean anything without purpose. And I mean genuine purpose. The best thing I've ever done was take the time to learn about myself and understand why I do what I do. I wanted to learn how my brain works, how I react to certain situations, how I interpret them. How I approach people, how I approach stress and hardships. I took the time to build a relationship with myself. We're all so busy trying to figure out the people around us, trying to figure out how to be successful, trying to figure out life. But we forget to figure out the type of people we are, and we lose sight of everything we work so hard for. 

How can we understand anything if we don't understand ourselves? How can we go through life without knowing who we are? We take ourselves for granted. We assume we know who we are. We assume we know what we're doing and what we want. And yet we still doubt ourselves. In all the stress and chaos we encounter in life, we forget who we are, and that leads to doubt.

I don't doubt that I'm strong enough to get through anything no matter how hard things get. No matter how much shit is thrown in my face, I know I'm going to stand taller. I know I'm going to move faster, work harder, and I know I'm going to be better. I'm building an empire from scratch. People will come and go, I'm used to that. I'm almost too used to that. I'll always have my close friends who I will forever cherish, but at the end of the day, I'm stuck with me. I need to be strong enough to stand on my own. I need to be confident enough in who I am in order to be the best person I can be for myself and for others. I need to trust myself enough so I never have the chance to doubt.

I'm sorry if this all seems like total nonsense, but if there's anything you take away, let it be this:

Learn who you are and never stop learning. You're strong. Don't doubt yourself. You're doing just fine.